Song of Solomon, Week 1 | Altogether Beautiful
Restored. Altogether Beautiful. Loved.
The heart of Darling Boutique is a personal testimony of grace, love, and redemption. While Megan travels abroad to celebrate one year of marriage (!!), I thought I'd take this opportunity to share my heart through a beautiful book of the Bible - the Song of Solomon.
"You are altogether beautiful, my darling, and there is no blemish in you." Song of Solomon 4:7
God brought Megan and I together two and a half years ago for more than friendship. He brought us together to become a duet, a partnership walking out His will. We are so divinely gifted for this partnership, from our similar redemption stories, to our gifts, to our personalities, to our shared heart for empowering women (and girls). It is none other than God's handiwork. After all, He sends us out in twos (Mark 6:7)!
It's been over four years since God began His restorative work in my heart, mind, body, and spirit. I grew up in a Christian home, but in college, I went astray. I was so consumed by controlling my own life, my own reputation and image, I ended up living two lives, even convincing my family I was still the same "good" girl. But underneath, I was drowning in a sea of sexual immorality, lies, and pain. I'd like to say I quickly ran back to the Lord and everything was okay again. But, to be honest, I fell on my knees and cried out to God repeatedly in my early twenties, unable to find freedom from the strongholds in my life and continually falling back into the same sin. I remember thinking (often), "There's no way God can love me after everything I've done." I felt so dirty and unworthy, and the enemy kept convincing me it was true. It wasn't until after college when I became rooted in a church community and started to confess with my tongue to family and friends that God began to unravel the chains.
I'm still on the journey of redemption and healing, but a few years ago, God used a dear friend to tell me that my sin has not diminished His love for me - that in His eyes, I am a pure, white lilac. What a beautiful blessing, to know we can be pure and washed clean, unburdened and unchained!
The Song of Solomon reminds me of God's relentless love. In chapter 4, He reassures His bride that His love has not diminished because of her sin. In fact, just the opposite. His heart overflows with love for her.
Too often women become burdened by self-doubt, believing lies of worthlessness because we have failed. Failed whom? The world? Christ shows us in Song of Solomon the intensity of His love for His bride never ceases.
In Song of Solomon 4:1-6, He describes eight attributes of her physical features, a number symbolizing new beginnings - there were eight people in the Ark in Genesis. In His eyes, we are blemish free, we are pure, and "altogether beautiful" to Him (Song of Solomon 4:7). Other translations of this verse state "all fair" or "beautiful in every way." It's in this "all," this "every" that we find true redemption, because it is a fullness, a wholeness of beauty only found in union with Christ.
This week, let Christ speak to your wounded heart. Let yourself find peace and rest in the presence of the Father's never-ceasing love. It is through Christ that we understand the love of the Father. Daughters, receive the intimate healing of His love. Ask Him to reveal how He sees you - altogether beautiful and without blemish.
"Father, what You see in me must be so because You are truth. Forgive me for believing lies that cause me to not see what You see in me. In faith I receive these amazing words of love for me from Your heart. Thank you for teaching me and showing me You are not looking for perfection in me while I walk this earth, but simply a total surrender of my will to You. You are patiently transforming me into Your beautiful image! My soul is flooded with worship for You. In Your most worthy name, Beloved of my heart, my Lord and my God, amen!"